I replace the receiver back on the phone and sink my back into the cushions resting on the wooden chair; I tilt my head backwards and smile, this is perfect, too perfect, things are actually going to turnout ok…finally I have the perfect reason to leave, no guilt to harbour, our vows, now rendered redundant, but I do not care…I haven’t for a long while, I only agreed to it for Tom’s sake..and he does this, how ironic…
Smiling, I twist the gold band around my finger one last time and remove it, placing it on the oak desk, untying mine and Tom’s bond. I am free, free to move on with my life without Tom…now I can openly be with Ben, guilt-free.
*Written for Voice Week 2013.
The phone rings at the same time, each day, every day…I daren’t answer it, so I do not…I just watch it light-up with each buzz. The news is rarely good, I’ve seen it in my dreams…so I do not answer, just watch it each and every day, hoping for its silence.
Subconsciously I go to twist the gold band on my ring finger -except it’s not there, I look down at my hand, diverting my eyes from the phone; an indentation of the ring screams stark realisations to me…it also explains Tom’s cold cup of coffee each morning and the dinner he never eats. It makes sense, but it does not…
Warning: Strong language used, please read with caution. 16+).
It’s been hours since…the phone on the oak desk smiles smugly at me, willing me -no, taunting me to make the call, but I shan’t, I shouldn’t listen to those thoughts, Tom said I mustn’t, that they do not speak the truth, that they lie…but he lied too…he lied when renewing our vows, so why should I believe him -and her
I slam the receiver onto the phone, the oak desk underneath creaks in response -how could he? How dare he -and with her -of all the people, Clara my sister, my blood -how could they? I punch with my bare fists onto the desk and recoil (flinching) then punch again and again, my knuckles red raw.
Down in the forest, right near the lake
Toadstool fairies swept leaves with their rakes
Whistling and singing
Dancing and prancing
They cleaned up the paths of where their homes lay.
Hiding in hedges, near by the trees
The pixies watched the fairies with glee
Waiting for sundown
Before they attack
They planned to mess the work (of the fairies’ comeback).
One wing of bat,
one fur-ball of cat,
two tonsils of Jedi’s,
(now’s where is my hat?)
Stir in three slugs,
add two electric plugs,
magic in cauldron-
I peep through the door,
(Glares two stony eyes),
Says he’s the Reaper,
I glide down my cries.
This weren’t the bargain,
I made them wherein,
He’s seven years early,
With no heaven gate pearly.
I shout through the door:
‘Please do come in
but do be aware, I’m a little chagrin.”
Heya, you may have noticed with the last 3-4 email notifications, I have encountered a technical hitch; getting back into the swing of blogging and also learning to use the tumblog features of this theme, has caused multiple posts (due to my impatience, after clicking submit,
If you are considering to build an audience through the mobile app PocketWriters, please be wary and read my story before you embark on a similar journey.
A few months ago I was actively looking for a mobile writers application where I could write on the go without being bound to my laptop (I have a love-hate relationship with my laptop, so anything which would help me become productive away from it I consider a blessing). I stumbled across three apps:
1. Wattpad 2. PocketWriters 3. Opuss (In that order.)
I signed up for all three simultaneously (I should really use the principle ‘one at a time’ and sometimes I do, but not on this occasion). From my initial nosey around the three apps I became very aware that these apps were very much community based and not the writing app I was searching for; however, I decided they would be a good tool to build an audience with, so hence I kept them (I mention my interactions on Wattpad and Opuss in this post I wrote a few weeks back). I posted a poem or two on PocketWriters as well as a couple of chapters from my short story Moon of Change, then I moved onto Wattpad (which I felt a little lost in) and then I started to post in Opuss (where I got hooked). Opuss has a beautiful community of readers and writers, it’s a great source to read, write, create and provide and recieve constructive criticism -see it like a critique group if you will, I certainly do. I digress. Due to its captivating community, I soon lost interest in the other two apps, that is -until we got news that Opuss will be shutting down. All Opussian’s started to look for an alternative home in various apps including Wattpad and PocketWriters. It was at this point where I was made aware by a fellow Oppussian that PocketWriters were not as credible as they seemed.
PocketWriters Unlawful Tactics
I have been informed that one of my posts has been sabotaged, therefore I have had to delete it. Hearing this news upset me, as it made me realise that, it does not really matter who you are, big or small in this world, evil is just pure evil and people will go to any lengths to discredit you or abuse your platform. I am unsure who this said person was and why they would do such a thing. I just hope, none of you’s have been effected by reading that post. The particular post in question was: ‘Tiny Baby Steps ROW80 Style’. Please let me know if you have noticed any other unsual activities from any of the the other posts (I hope there is no other).
In the meantime, I want to repost the deleted post in it’s entirity as it was a pretty significant piece for me at the time. The lesson I learnt then is an important one, which I often forget time and time again, so as a valuable tool to remember, (maybe fate’s trying to remind me a few important truths), I need to take this on again. I do hope this post is as valuable to you as it is to me. Apologies in advance for some of the news below not being current; cutting any bits out would lose it’s meaning, therefore, I have kept it all together. I do hope I have made the right decision. Anyhoo, enjoy.
Dearest readers, the schedule is tweaked for my convenience (timewise) and is in keeping with daily/monthly prompts/challenges I have started up on Opuss. If you fancy taking part in the Opuss challenges, or just want to be inspired, join me there or write your pieces and link your posts back to me me so I can pop by and have a read.
I will try to keep to the daily schedule; however, I will not restrict myself to it and will post as and when I can, again another element of yikici surprise playing afoot here.
Similar to the previous Tuesday’s Triptych Tapestry, the daily prompts will differ slightly, I will keep the concept simpler. I will share imagery every day which I hope will inspire to write anything and everything or just help you start the day with a smile.
In Addition to the Daily Prompt the Following Schedule will Continue:
It feels like another eternity has flown past since I last wrote a blog post. The passing times have been difficult, the road to recovery, testing, challenging and perplexing at times. A constant battle in my mind between self-doubt and belief that I can beat this, I believe I will, it will just take time and patience -something, you, my lovely readers have in abundance.
After a HUGE break (apologies to all my lovely subscribers) I wanted to say what a glorious day it is to welcome Pamela V. Mason to the Savvy Salutations’ guest post slot. Pamela is a wonderful person, so full of life and joy; every time I get a chance to speak with her I am met with full enthusiasm; therefore, I had to convince her to pop by and be a superb guest here on yikici and being the angel she is, she gracefully accepted. I just know her zest for life will rub off on you all… -Okay, okaaaay I’ll shush and let you enjoy Pamela’s inspirational post.
by Pamela V. Mason
We all hit the jackpot. But do we recognize it when we do, and do we use it, enjoy it? Or fritter it away via fear and regrets?
No…not talking about money or those fifteen minutes of fame….
I’m talking about that happy place in life where you arrive and everything falls into place and works for you.
You’re no longer uncertain of yourself, afraid to take risks. It’s that comfort you feel living in your own skin, warts and all. You can quit sucking in your gut, covering up the acne scars, and smiling with your mouth closed so nobody sees your missing tooth.
It’s security in yourself and knowing who you are and where and how you fit in. What you can do well, and what you can’t. What you’re meant to do with the rest of the morning suns you have left in your life.
Heya lovely readers I’ve been tagged by Sally to take part in: Lucky 7 -which is blog (or facebook) fun for authors (Sally is a good friend of mine from university and is also the author of ‘Through Mortal Eyes‘ -her superb new novel -keep an eye out for her; I will be featuring Sally as a guest blogger soon as part of Savvy Salutations too). I think this is a good way to introduce you to my current manuscript BMR; I hope you like the snippet I am about to share with you. Before we read the passage, here’s the instructions I had to follow:
-Go to page 7 or 77 in your current manuscript
-Go to line 7
-Post on your blog the next 7 lines, or sentences, as they are – no cheating
Tag 7 other authors to do the same. Seven sentences…
My manuscipt (BMR) is still in draft mode; so it’s still rough around the edges. This is from page 7, 7 lines from the 7th line.
15th March 2012 was the one year anniversary of my blog. *dances a merry jig* Due to all that was going on as I mentioned in my earlier post (click here to read); I’ve not been able to do a midway check-in or anything fancy to celebrate. Never fear, I’m here today so we can do a quick recap to see where we are in the challenge and to celebrate the missed anniversary; I plan to write something up for this challenge too (just a separate Flash Fiction piece for fun; I’ll post it within the week or so).
So far, CMBrown, Lara Schiffbauer and Deniz Bevan have taken up the challenge (if you haven’t read what they have written, please click on the links above -in the order above- to catch up); who will be the next story-teller, you, me or them? Join us and find out.
The Challenge to you…
I want us to write a story together. How? Just like any other Flash Fiction Challenge; but with a slight twist (I can’t help myself); we will each write a paragraph (no more than 250 words per entry) to the on-going story (which will start below and continue in the comment section/linky list, I will create a page to collate all the entries.). Once we finish this rather exciting online project, I hope to publish our collected works in an eBook -either market it for free or put it on sale for a worthy cause, I usually choose children charities; but we can decide the final outcome all together once the project is completed.
What do you say? Are you in? Alrighty. Here’s the 3 (+1, just because an anniversary is coming up) images I have chosen for this challenge; I hope it gets your creative juices going; be inspired by one or more -the choice is yours.
As you all know I have been struggling with keeping to my blog schedule –I’ve changed it a few times; but it’s not turned out quite to how I’ve envisioned it to be. External factors (laptop problems & internet connection issues) and internal factors (my anxiety & bouts of low moods) have stepped in and hindered me somewhat –it’s been pretty depleting and has made me feel like quite a failure (which I know I am not) –therefore, I REALLY hate it. For this reason I’ve come up with a cunning plan which will hopefully allow me to breathe and have fun with creating fun, thought-provoking and creative articles again –all with an element of surprise. I’m DITCHING the pace of the schedule, what this essentially means is I will post articles when they are ready and not to a predefined schedule. I am hoping this will help with lessening the anxiety I put on myself as I normally focus on trying to finish an article on time and then post it when I feel it’s not ready and needs more work. By taking out the time-constraints I hope to not feel pressurised and in turn be more forthcoming with my article. The only aspect of the schedule I will be keeping to is the themes. This means when an article is ready for posting I will schedule it to be published on the relevant themed day. –so when you see a post on a Monday you will know is a Meandering Muse, Tuesdays will be challenge orientated and Flash Fictions, etc…I’m sure you get the idea.
I wasn’t planning to post anything today; but Billie Jo tempted me with her entry for BeKindWrite’s celebratory Birthday Inspirational Monday post InMon-ster: Deadly Papers.
The prompts I had to work with are:
Deadly paper / The city that never wakes / Deafening / Last place you look / They took it away
BeKindWrite was not mean with the rules; therefore we had free reign on how to work the pieces; the only condition was to use the prompts (all or a few) in any way we may interpret it.
I could not wait to sink my teeth into this. I hope you enjoy what my muse became.
If you don’t know by now; I’m a doodler, I doodle -gee weeeee I even have created my own pseudonym -you must of spied it around my blog and ‘out there’ in the internetverse. doodllz. Yep, as simple as that -my friends and family can’t understand my fascination with doodles; so I ignore them *cheeky grin* (love you all really). Well, saying that, my sister seems to have understood my appreciation of the form and sent me a link about National doodle day -say what? That was my initial reaction; then, I got a tad excited and jumped onto the link (literally would have been difficult; but you get my drift). National doodle day is a fundraising event day (which carries on through to mid-April) for Epilepsy Action; click here to find out more about the event and here to find out how you can participate. I love the sentiments behind it and I’m especially ecstatic about the idea -why? I thought I made it clear as mud…doodles, doodllzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
What a glorious day to welcome Rance Denton to the Savvy Salutations’ guest post slot. I met Rance through Rachael Harrie’ Third Writer’ Platform-Building Campaign and I am sooo glad to have had the pleasure in knowing him -his unique and witty take on all things around us always makes me smile and the stories he conjures up are delights to read. I’ve also been fortunate to write a guest post on his blog; which is why it’s extra special to be able to feature him here on yikici. When you have a moment, please pop by to his blog and have a nosey around -you’ll see what I mean; in the meantime, I’ll leave the spotlight to Rance and his humorous rant on family relations:
Warning: This article contains some strong language.